by: Carole L. Haines

I have been struggling a lot with loneliness as I am recovering from knee surgery. In this down time, God seems to be whispering to me that I haven’t learned to trust Him one moment at a time, one day at a time. I will fill my schedule just so I don’t have to be alone too much.
But I must pause and ask myself, “Why?”
I know how to quote lots of scriptures on trusting God, like:
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be provided to you. “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. ” (Matthew 6:33-34)

Yet right now, I am having to live these words, to walk them out moment by moment; and that is so much harder. Am I really seeking God’s Kingdom first? Am I not worrying about tomorrow? Good questions; and my answer is, “I’m trying!”
The truth is we are all trying, we are all still growing and learning, winning and failing. My mom has always told me, “The longest 18 inches is between the head and the heart.” As an introvert, I would have thought being alone would be easy, but it has been truly tough. I like my comfortable schedule; I don’t like all this time alone.
Then I realized that the disciples had to learn to follow Jesus moment by moment. They followed never knowing what was coming next or where He was going to lead them. I believe Jesus is still leading us the same way He led them. I believe we need to learn to trust as much as they did. We may not see Him physically, but neither did they after His resurrection. While Jesus was on earth, He trained them to follow. When He ascended, they leaned into what He had demonstrated to them in Following His own Father in Heaven. Jesus wants us to learn to rely on Him as He leads us each day, moment by moment, just as the disciples did. Let’s pray:

Jesus, Father, Holy Spirit- we run ahead of You or lag behind you so often. Please teach us to walk in sync with You, each day of our lives, moment by moment. We choose not to worry about tomorrow, but to learn to live the day that we are in right now. Thank you Jesus.