the unraveling

The unraveling

a poem by: carole l. haines

And the light goes on

and, in shock, I realize I am still in the dark

I fathom just how decieved I have been

I see deeper inside myself than I ever wanted to see

and I don’t like what I find there

Now I have a choice

I can deny this revelation

blame it all on somebody else

feel sorry for myself and go off to pout in a corner

or I can embrace it

with all of it’s prickly edges

reminding me of just how far I have to grow

I can receive this correcting hug of God

the Word of God pricking my thickened skin

melting my hardened heart

softening the glare I see within the mirror.

And so I choose to embrace the one in four

For the Word of God will touch me

in these familiar ways

teaching, training in righteousness, correcting or rebuking

So I take the correction within  myself

and I let it begin the healing cycle

of seeing, admitting, confessing and releasing.

Another dark spot corrected, removed, made whole

another piece of the pain restored

and I lay here exhausted, relieved

but confused about where it all came from

I’m so glad that You Know what You are doing God

cause I’m at a loss here to help myself.

Search me, Oh God, and know my heart

Try me and know my anxious thoughts

see if there be any evil way in me, Lord

and lead me in Your Way everlasting