As I was Worshipping this morning, the songs were all about God’s love, His power, His healing. I know when people speak of healing, most people immediately think of bodily healing, healings within the physical realm. But all of us have experienced wounding in our emotions, our minds, our souls. I have experienced deep wounds of rejection, self-hatred, broken dreams, severe losses. On the surface, except for a few extra pounds picked up over the years, I probably look pretty all together to most people. But as I was listening and singing the words of the songs this morning, I sensed there was deep healing that still needed to happen within some areas of wounding from my past. I kept hearing words like, “There is power in the name of Jesus,” and I know there is, I’ve experienced it before, in many areas. But as I listened with my heart, I sensed God wanting to release me from more, in deeper places.
I heard words in the songs like, “chains falling off,” and I realized that Jesus had cut those chains. I was the one still holding on to them.
I didn’t know how to let go, I just didn’t know how to loosen my grip, but then God gave me a picture in my mind and words to pray. I prayed, “Keep filling me up Lord, Keep pouring Yourself into me, Keep washing this stuff out.” I kept repeating that prayer in my heart and mind while others were singing around me. The picture I had was that of a pitcher of colored water.
This water was all the different types of wounds and pain inside me. Wounds I had inflicted myself, and wounds from the sins of others. Then God gave me a picture of His Crystal Clear and Pure water of healing. He was pouring this water into me, more and more and more. I was filled up to overflowing with His New and Living water. And all the different pains I have felt, are being washed out more and more. The colors, the pain, are being washed away by the Love of Jesus Christ.
This process is what theologians would call “Sanctification, or Transformation. The Most beautiful verse about this process I have found, is in the Book of Romans, chapter 12.
Romans 12:1-2
Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. 2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.
And so, pray with me, “Jesus, Keep pouring Your clear, Holy and living water into me until all of me is transformed into all of You. I love You, Jesus, and thank You for the truth and power of Your promises. With You, I always know where I stand.” Amen