My soul, wait in silence for God only,
For my hope is from Him.
6 He only is my rock and my salvation,
My stronghold; I shall not be shaken.
7 On God my salvation and my glory rest;
The rock of my strength, my refuge is in God.
8 Trust in Him at all times, O people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us. Selah. (Psalm 62)
We all want our lives to matter, t count for something. I have often seen, that in our desire to matter, people sometimes try to exalt themselves. I have seen this in the world and in the Church. I, in my younger days, tried to do the same myself. It wasn’t until God showed me “Why I did this,” that I began to ask Him to show me the way out of this need to be important. My freedom came when I realized that I already am as important as I will ever be. There is no worldly position or place of prominence in the Body of Christ that can ever alter God’s love for me and His view of me. The more secure I became in God’s perfect love for me through His Son Jesus, the less I felt the need to matter or be important. I no longer desire to leave my mark upon the world or even in the Church. I have learned that the only thing that brings contentment and peace is being in tune with God, His Son Jesus, through His Spirit who now indwells me through faith. I simply awaken each morning to His precious presence, listen for His voice as He leads me throughout each day, sit and fellowship with Him in His Word as He speaks to me, and I do what He says. It is a simple life, but so precious, so purely joyous, so real.
Some of you know that My husband and I tried pursuing “The Christian Music” thing and God closed that door, we went through tremendous loss and disappointment. But I have come to realize through all of that, that I cannot matter any more than I already do. I have come to realize that if I do what God shows me each day of my very simple life, my life will matter just as much as anyone else’s in the Body of Christ. I can both lie down and sleep in peace because God alone can make my life count for something, and only He knows how to do that. In Jesus…I matter, I count.
So all to Jesus, I surrender. All to Him I freely give. I will ever love and trust Him. In His presence daily live.