I woke up around 5 a.m. this morning and came out to have my quiet time. Don’t think I am “all that” because I wake up early, that’s just been my body Clock pattern my entire adult life. I think I was that way as a child too, can’t remember. But I came out to spend time with God and I just began to pour out my heart before Him about how much I miss Him and how busy life is right now. I asked Him to reveal to me if there was any sin or heart attitude that was hindering the intimacy between us. I began to journal all that He showed me and, I gotta tell ya, it was a long list. I had a lot of things to get off my chest, but actually I had a lot of things to get out of my heart. Little misunderstandings had grown into grudges, tid-bits of gossip I had heard others speak festered, my own insecurity was causing me to be envious, jealous and petty inside. I was clogged, I tell ya, I needed a Spiritual Cleansing to dislodge all the junky build up that was inside of my heart. Don’t know how it got there, I never intended to hang on to any of it, but it somehow had clung on to me.
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I asked God to really speak to me this morning, I took a break after the long session of confession, and was making tonight’s dinner. I began to sing and hum praises. As I did, my heart felt lighter, cleaner, more joy-filled. I realized that I hadn’t spontaneously praised Him recently. This made me realize that Confession and Praising go hand in hand. I had just poured out the gunky build up in my heart, and God had really forgiven me and taken it away. Now the Channel was clean for praise to pour through. It was such a blessing. As I turned to Bible Gateway’s reading for the day. It led me to the following passage.
13 I gave you a land on which you had not labored, and cities which you had not built, and you have lived in them; you are eating of vineyards and olive groves which you did not plant.’ God has blessed me so very much. I have a lot to praise Him for.
14 “Now, therefore, fear the Lord and serve Him in sincerity and truth; In all sincerity and truth, like my need to confess my wrong attitudes and such this morning.
and put away the gods which your fathers served beyond the River and in Egypt, and serve the Lord. One of the things I had confessed was how I had allowed old patterns to come back in and begin to put their claws back into me. I laid these out before God and asked for release and an awareness of the subtlety of old ways.
15 If it is disagreeable in your sight to serve the Lord, choose for yourselves today whom you will serve: Following God requires a lot of Spiritual Maintenance. It requires transparency and open-ness before God and man. I was beginning to close up, and I sensed it. God gently cleansed and restored me this morning. Praise His Name.
whether the gods which your fathers served which were beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you are living; but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” O those awful gods of the past, former places of bondage and fear. We all have areas of weakness where it is easy to slide back into. God dealt with some of those this morning for me. I will try to be more ware of these. We will always fall back more easily into old sins. We must be on guard.
16 The people answered and said, “Far be it from us that we should forsake the Lord to serve other gods; 17 for the Lord our God is He who brought us and our fathers up out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage, and who did these great signs in our sight and preserved us through all the way in which we went and among all the peoples through whose midst we passed. 18 The Lord drove out from before us all the peoples, even the Amorites who lived in the land. We also will serve the Lord, for He is our God.” (Joshua 24)
Father, thank You for this morning’s “Cleansing Session.” I am so grateful that You love me too much to leave me as I am. Thank you for always calling me to walk and maintain Your standard of love, purity, mercy, forgiveness and grace. Thank You that Your love for me is always calling me to a deeper walk with you and a more real and transparent walk with others. I love You, O Father, the One and Only True God. thank You forever. Amen!