That Restless Longing

by: carole l. haines

And here it is again, that sense in my spirit that something is about to change, needs to change.  Some describe it as discontent, but that is often anchored in self.  This is not that, it is different, reaching down into my very spirit. Over the many years I have walked with God, I have always sensed this right before big changes came into my life, like a warning, or a nudge from God.  Only God knows if it is from him, or from inside me. I’m not sure who first coined the phrase, “A Holy Discontent.”  All I know, is that I have heard the phrase before, and it perfectly depicts what I am feeling.  Have I gotten it wrong in the past?  Sure, but God can move me easier when I am moving toward Him.  So that is what I will do now, as ever. ¹² So then, my beloved, just as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your salvation with fear and trembling; ¹³ for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure. (Philippians 2) Truly, God You are the only One who can reveal Your heart in me, and my own heart to myself.  Lately, it all seems buried deep beneath a pile of the trite and inconsequential things.  Father, hear my prayer this day.  Reveal the truth beneath these layers and slowly help me sort this pile.  If it is self-centeredness, Lord, then let it pass away, and the discontent with it.  But Lord, if change is coming, if this is what I have come to know as “a holy discontent,” than have Your Way, Father.  Lead on, Lord, let me see Your Heart.  Let me hear Your voice. Let me desire Your Will, and not my own.  Father, it is hard to stand still when my heart is already running ahead of my feet, but You know Your own heart, I do not.  Please reveal Your heart to me this day, so I can align my own with Yours.  I need You, Lord. Amen!
Here is a song that depicts, better that I can, where I am this morning.
Experiencing God, music for knowing and doing the Will of God It is written by: Lowell Alexander, Dave Clark, Jeff Silvey and Tony Wood
I Hear a Whisper
I feel a restless longing, deep within my spirit, Lord like there’s more to this life of faith, then I have known before and from this place of discontent, You’ve heard my constant cry Now You’ve begun to answer, Lord, for I cannot deny That I hear a whisper in the silence, a stirring in the wind saying I can know where You are moving, and I can join in I can have purpose and passion, know Your Will and know my part I hear a whisper and I’m feeling change is coming to my heart.