By: carole l. haines
Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being, and in the hidden part You will make me know wisdom. (Psalm 51:6)
I was sharing with someone about an emotional wound that I have, and how I keep messing up in that area of ministry. As I was sharing with them, I said these words, “We must go back to our original sins. We must look at where we first got “off-track” in an area, and then confess that to God, and seek cleansing in that area.” It was then that I realized that was what I, myself needed to do. Confession has been best described to me as, “Agreeing with God about our sin.” But how can we agree with God, if we keep covering it up with rationalizations, giving excuses for why we did what we did, blaming someone else, or just plain giving sin a rosy glow. I’m exhausted by this wound, tired of the festering stench, like that of rotting food at the bottom of a trash bag. I want cleansing, freedom, peace.
Perhaps you have something in your life that is similar, a place where you got off-track, and need to see it for what it is, at the core…sin. Nobody wants to use that word anymore, sin, sin, sin. Let’s call it what it is. Let’s come before our God and say, “Lord, where did it all go wrong here? I keep messing up in this one area. I’m tired of making excuses, rationalizing, I just want Your Peace. Take me back to the place of my original sin. Please walk back with me, to the place where it all went wrong, where I first got off track, and put me back on the straight and narrow. Lord, I desire truth in the Innermost Being. Truth is what will set me free. But it can’t be my distorted view of the facts. It can’t be my rationalizations for what happened. It can’t be my blaming someone else. I want Your truth Lord, I need Your view. Amen!
I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, lofty and exalted, with the train of His robe filling the temple. 2 Seraphim stood above Him, each having six wings: with two he covered his face, and with two he covered his feet, and with two he flew. 3 And one called out to another and said, “Holy, Holy, Holy, is the Lord of hosts, the whole earth is full of His glory.”
4 And the foundations of the thresholds trembled at the voice of him who called out, while the temple was filling with smoke. 5 Then I said, “Woe is me, for I am ruined! Because I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips; For my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts.”
6 Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a burning coal in his hand, which he had taken from the altar with tongs. 7 He touched my mouth with it and said, “Behold, this has touched your lips; and your iniquity is taken away and your sin is forgiven.” (Isaiah 6)