by: Carole L. Haines
When I asked God what to write in HisShadowings today, I sensed He just wanted me to be transparent with my own journal entry.
“I just finished the Book Launch process and I’m so spent, so exhausted. It was all encompassing some days and I just Miss you, God, ya know what I mean. I just want to sit and listen to You in Your Word again. No agenda except to enjoy Your presence. No editing, formatting or anything like that. No learning how to Do Something. Just sitting alone with You.
Father, I don’t know how to Get deeper in touch with You through my emotions. I have blamed myself for being TOO emotional for years. Pointing the finger at myself, accusing myself of not being stronger, wiser or whatever. Please help me Jesus to grow in this area. Thank you, Jesus, for never throwing me away. Help me to love You with my whole heart, soul, mind and strength. Amen.”
(My personal journal)
God brought me to this wonderful passage in Job, which aptly describes how I am feeling lately. I love how it describes that though I sometimes can’t find God, He knows exactly where I am. As I turn to run toward His voice, He is already running toward me, His child.
“Behold, I go forward but He is not there,
And backward, but I cannot perceive Him.
When He acts on the left, I cannot behold Him.
He turns on the right, I cannot see Him.
“But He knows the way I take.
When He has tried me, I shall come forth as gold.
“My foot has held fast to His path.
I have kept His way and not turned aside.
“I have not departed from the command of His lips.
I have treasured the words of His mouth more than my necessary food.
God is so amazingly good. He reads every wrinkled brow. He sees the creases in our downturned mouths. He knows the knot in our stomach from fear or worry.
God You are so Amazing, so Amazing in Your Love toward us. Draw us closer, pull us nearer, help us to seek you and find you as we search for You with all our hearts this day. And can I just say THANK YOU for how the angle of the Sun has been changing over the last week. Spring has begun to fight for her place as winter begins to melt away. I join with the birds in singing Your praises this day. I love You, God.
“Lord, I am blinded by my self-absorption; help me fully see Your love and care. I am human and frail; help me look beyond my doubts to clearly see Your presence in my life. When I only see my needs, help me to see Your eternal nature and to worship You. Amen. Go Deeper: (Matthew 17:14-21) Jesus can help you today as He helped people in Bible times.”
(Prime Time with God for 3/2/21)