by: carole l. haines
What is a diary? I looked it up just out of curiosity, and here is what the dictionary said, “a book in which one keeps a daily record of events and experiences.” Well, I am not planning to write a book or anything, but I do believe God brought me to California for a purpose, even if I am not sure what that purpose is. I have a whirl of emotions about being here; excitement, fear, apprehension, feeling shy, out of my element, but right now, I feel a sigh of relief. I have been trying to get alone with God for quite a while now, and with Bruce working during the day while we are here, I finally have it. Just before I left, I downloaded a book by K. P. Yohannan, who is the Founder for The Gospel for Asia Missions. It is called, LIVING IN THE LIGHT OF ETERNITY. I can tell it’s going to be convicting, but I need revival in my heart and soul about living for Jesus. I have made my life so “all about me,” most of the time. As I thought about reading it, I thought of the Rich Young Ruler that Jesus spoke to in Matthew 19:20-22 20 The young man *said to Him, “All these things I have kept; what am I still lacking?” 21 Jesus said to him, “If you wish to be complete, go and sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.” 22 But when the young man heard this statement, he went away grieving; for he was one who owned much property.
I was intrigued by the phrase Jesus used, “If you wish to be complete.” Here is what complete means in the original Greek:
brought to its end, finished, wanting nothing necessary to completeness, perfect that which is perfect. Consummate human integrity and virtue, full grown, adult, of full age, mature.
Well, Yeah! I want that, who wouldn’t, as a believer anyway? But I can tell, from my apprehensive response, that I am a bit more like the Rich Young Ruler, than I care to admit, even to myself. This is not going to be an easy journey, over the next two weeks, as God examines my soul, with His High-Powered Microscope, called the Word and The Spirit. But I need it, and ultimately, I want it.
Please pray for me, as I yield to the scalpel of His Love.