The Space Between

The space between

Overcoming fear is huge for many of us, including myself.  I could tell you of three times in particular where I was stalked and God’s protection rescued me.  These three incidents happened many years ago from my teenage years to my early twenties.  I had not experienced that fear in a very long time, until a few weeks ago.  Within a 24 hour period, God protected me from disaster.  

I was traveling home and heard a screeching sound behind me, I saw a car swerve sharply, directly behind mine.  The car the flipped over, hit the guard rail and went flying off into the woods.  i pulled over to the shoulder so I could back up and check on the person, but many other cars pulled over behind me to do the same.  I couldn’t maneuver, so I thought I’d go and turn around to check, but by then, traffic was jammed up. It was an “objects in mirror are closer than they appear,” moment.  It seemed surreal because I saw it all happen in the rearview mirror.  I couldn’t find documentation of the accident anywhere in the news or online.  I wanted to see if the person was okay.

Next morning, I decided to walk my dogs at a local park, as usual.  There is always a gatekeeper to check ID’s, so only members get in.  This particular morning there was not.  I went in anyway, and decided fear was not going to rule me.  I parked and walked to the wooded path.  A black car slowed and was watching me.  I was cut off from my car.  Absolutely no one was around.  I wondered if I should walk, or go back.  The car moved on, so I decided to walk.  I saw no signs of anyone until I came out of the woods by the water.  A man was coming toward me.  I maneuvered to the right, up a hill, off the path to avoid him.  He went to his left to cut me off.  I went back down the hill and under a bridge, he followed.  I  realized I was in trouble and walked as fast as I could with my dogs to my van.  He followed me, still far enough away for me to get there.  He limped a bit, so it was easier to get away.  I got to my car and unlocked it, put the dogs in, got in and locked it again.  My heart was racing.  I was afraid he’d follow me in his car so I got out of the park as fast as I could.  I watched all the way home, and took detours, to make sure he wasn’t following me.  God had protected me again.  “Unless the Lord had helped me, I would have settled in the silence of the grave.” Psalm 94:17

In counseling the next week, we prayed for God to deliver me from the fear that had come back based on those incidences.  My counselor asked me to envision being there again, both in the car, and walking.  She asked if I saw Jesus anywhere protecting me.  I didn’t.  I had seen Him before, in other prayer times over past trauma, but not this time.  Then I got a sense of, “I am the space between.”  I opened my eyes and told my counselor that god had showed me that He was the one occupying the space between myself and harm.  He kept the car from hitting me, and He kept the man from catching up to me.  

I will never forget this.  We prayed through Psalm 91 together to close.  Here is some of what it says.

Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.  This I declare about the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my god and I trust Him.”

It is a great Psalm to read often.  i know I have read it a lot since that day.

God bless your day

OBSCURITY


12-8-12

As I awoke this morning to a late Autumn fog.  I was drawn to the world outside by the heavy mist lingering amidst the trees outside my window.  I did my chores early, got my husband out the door for work and headed to my van, camera in hand.   I just love to drive around early in the morning and take picture.  I guess I should say, stop, and then take the pictures.  I passed by a park by a pond with a lonely bench peering out over the bare and mist-veiled woods.  One of my favorite verses came to mind.

“Behold, I go forward but He is not there
and backward, but I cannot perceive Him.
When He acts on the left, I cannot behold Him;
He turns on the right, I cannot see Him.
But He (God) knows the way I take;
and when He has tired me, I shall come forth as gold.  
My foot has held fast to His path
I have kept His way and not turned aside.
I have not departed from the command of His lips.
I have treasured the Words of His mouth
 
more than my necessary food.”
Job 23:8-12

Life has a way of sneaking up on us from behind.  Our view is obscured on every side by uncertainty.  In life, I have found only one who never changes, one who is always there, who never leaves me nor forsakes me.  So often I feel unsure about the road that lies ahead of me.  I so often feel distracted and drawn back into the broken places behind me.  My peripheral vision is blurred so that I cannot see but a step in front of me.  I find that I do not need to find God,  for He has already found me.  I do not need to fear, for He knows the way I take.  I may lose sight of Him, but He never, ever takes His eyes off me.  So now I see I need not fear the obscurity of the future, nor be haunted by the failures of the past.  Yes, misty ways are all around me, but I am never alone.  I must spend my time knowing the One within the mist, The creator of the shadows.  He is the healer of broken hearts, the molder of shattered hopes, dreams and aspirations.  I need not fear Obscurity, when I know the creator of us all.  I will fix my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith, who for the joy set before Him, endured the cross, despising its shame.
I too can endure, leaving behind all the broken pieces.  I can put down the glue bottle and stop trying to piece my life back together.  I must simply know and trust the One who dwells within my obscurity and trust His plan for all my days
God bless you all this day

12-6-12

One of my favorite things to do during the Christmas season, is to drive around at night and see all the light displays.  It reminds me of the long ago night when God entered this world as a newborn child and a beautiful star heralded His appearing.        God is so often speaking to us.  The heavens do declare the glory of God, The mountains do cry out and the Oceans roar.  One of my favorite songs for the Season is “O Holy Night.”  I love the line…

He appeared and the soul felt its worth

Do we remember back to when our faith was new and fresh?  When it was like being dropped into a new world of joy and discovery.  Because God’s Word is living and active, our faith is ever open to growth and inspiration, change and hope.  I can truly say that over the last 40 years of faith, God has not just saved my soul and secured a place for me in heaven, but He has transformed my mind my heart, my personality.  I discover rare gems in His Word almost daily and I feel so rich.  
            That is part of why I started this blog, to share those gems with His Body, and all who should be led to visit this site. Let me quote from a short story assignment I wrote for writing class about ten years ago:

If only the world itself would quietly rest and enjoy
the many and varied concerts that our Creator provides for us all
perhaps we’d see Him break in upon our world with
the same wonder of that Night so long ago immortalized
in songs of “Silent Night and “It came upon the midnight clear”
He is ever with us, He is always speaking
It is we who have become too busy to pause and look around 
to Be still and know that He is God
We must look up and see with our own eyes that 
The heavens declare the Glory of God
That Day to Day pours forth speech
and night to night reveals knowledge
There is no speech nor language where their voice is not heard

He is ever reaching out to us, speaking to us through His Word and His creation.  
Let us pause and listen, quiet ourselves and watch.  He fills us with wonder whenever we take the time to sit before Him.  
May you all have a blessed day in Him

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